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Friday, November 22, 2013

They Worshipped Him

Now the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain to which Jesus had directed them. When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything that I have commanded you. And remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” — Matthew 28:16-20
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I considered myself very fortunate to visit the Magic Monastery last autumn.  The trees were a wash of reds, oranges, and yellows.  The air was filled with the aroma of fresh baked bread, pastries, and hot cider.  The crunching of leaves beneath my feet, the gentle breeze, and the melodious songs of the birds created a beautiful symphony that I will not soon forget.

While on my visit, I happened to venture into the gardens of the monastery.  While I was walking, I came across an old beggar, who I paused at and took pity upon.  I asked him if there was anything he needed; if there was anything I could do for him.  He looked up at me and simply said “All I ask is that you seek justice, love kindness, and walk humbly with God”.  This response caught me off guard, so I threw a few coins into his cup and walked along.  I spotted a bench, so I decided to sit down at it and just enjoy the fall day.  As I was resting, I saw one of the gardeners working hard at planting some bulbs for the spring.  I called to her asking if she wanted any help with the task.  But just like the beggar, she looked up at me, smiled, and said “All I ask is that you seek justice, love kindness, and walk humbly with God”.  I started to think this place was rather strange.  “Is that the only thing anybody can say in this place?” I thought to myself.  I was so preoccupied with in my thoughts that I completely didn’t notice that I was about to bump into my Lord.  He called my name and when I realized who it was, I immediately fell to my knees in praise and worship of him.  This caused him to laugh and shake his head and he then said “Get up, your worship is not what I seek.”  Perplexed, I got up and asked him “well then what do you require of me, o Lord?”  My Lord then smiled at me and said “All I ask, is that you seek justice, love kindness, and walk humbly with God”.

I wrote that devotion last year for one of our social justice meetings.  It’s written very much in the style of Theophane the Monk’s collection of stories called “Tales of a Magic Monastery”.  That collection is filled with parables for the modern age that call us to think deeper about our faith journeys, and I highly recommend that everyone have this book as a personal devotional resource.

Anyways, when I read that devotional for the social justice committee, one of the comments that Andreas made was how much he liked the last bit that the Lord says in the story.  “Get up, your worship is not what I seek”.  I’ll admit, I sort of wrote that as a throwaway line, not really thinking about its implications, just thinking “hey this sounds good”.  But I’ve lately been giving a lot of thought to that idea and what exactly the role of worship, particularly the weekly worship service, is in the Christian life.

Two summers ago, I was lucky enough to attend a conference called the Fund for Theological Education.  FTE is an ecumenical organization that exists to empower, prepare, and equip young persons for successful ministry in the Church.  When I went, the passage I read earlier from Matthew was our guiding theme for the week: Jesus giving the great commission to the disciples;  Jesus telling them to go out and make disciples of all nations.  One of the days of the weeklong conference was spent with the group broken up and doing a different site visit.  The group I was placed in, however, stayed at the conference center and watched a documentary about Father Michael Pfleger.  

For those of you who don’t know, Michael Pfleger is a Catholic priest in the south side of Chicago.  When he started his post at Saint Sabina’s Church in 1981, the church was mere months from closing its doors for good.  During his uninterrupted tenure (he’s still appointed there, a phenomenon that’s quite rare in the Catholic church) he has been a very vocal activist on many social issues that plague Chicago.  By utilizing the local media, Pfleger and his congregants have successfully enacted many changes in the south side of Chicago, from banning the advertisement of tobacco and alcohol in certain communities, to holding gun drives and protesting gun shops.  Amidst all of this, Pfleger has garnered a lot of criticism from the larger powers that be for his very vocal methods to achieving that end.  There are also those who would say that he has developed a cult of personality at Saint Sabina and that when he leaves his post (whether by another appointment or due to his health) the church will go back to the way it was.  

FTE also invited Michael Pfleger and Bob Hercules—the man who directed the documentary—to be in dialogue with us about the documentary and Michael Pfleger’s life and ministry after the screening.  During the talk, Father Pfleger said something that really stuck with me.  He said that “Christian life is like a game of football, and the weekly worship service is like the huddle.  It’s important for the game, but it’s not what everyone came out to see”.  

And yet, the most common metric in this day and age in determining if a ministry is successful or not is how many people are coming to worship on a Sunday.  The modern Christian life is completely worship-centric.  If we want a new person to get involved in a church community, we invite them to worship.  We have months out of the year devoted to sermon series designed to bring in new people.  Seminaries are very insistent that when you visit them, you experience a chapel service.  When worship attendance drops, we lament over the death of our Church.  And I can understand where this mentality comes from.  The weekly worship service is often the only time you can see every member of your community at once.

And that’s a real shame.  Jesus did not tell the disciples on that mountain to stay where they are and invite people in, but rather to go out and be in ministry with the people of all nations, races, gender identities, sexual orientations, places in society, and beliefs.  Jesus is not calling his disciples to be worshippers, but to be ministers.  And I think the trap that the modern church has fallen into is thinking that the worship service and ministry the same thing.

You see, ministry is not sitting in a pew singing songs, reciting prayers, and listening to a sermon.  Ministry is giving out free hot cider to members of the student community on a cold afternoon.  Ministry is organizing a service trip to New Jersey for hurricane relief.  Ministry is buying soup for a member of the community who posts on our Facebook wall that they are sick.  Ministry is providing a safe space for members of your congregation to come and doubt, struggle, and question their faith.  Ministry is empowering congregation by offering them real leadership roles and giving them the opportunity to preach on a Thursday night.  The worship service is what we do in here, in the Kay Spiritual Life Center on a Sunday or Thursday.  Ministry is what we do beyond these walls and doors for the people beyond these walls and doors. 

Consider stained glass windows.  Many churches utilize stained glass windows in their place of worship in some way or another.  As I’m sure you know, we too in the Kay community have stained glass windows, but because our worship services often fall after the sun sets, we can’t see the beautiful colors.  That’s because stained glass windows only “work” if the light from outside is brighter than the light inside.  No matter how much light we fill this space with, we won’t be able to see the colors of the stained glass without the light from outside.



I don’t know if church architects had this in mind when they were first using stained glass in churches or not, but stained glass windows serve as a visual reminder of our call to be ministers to the world.  If we only think of our own worshiping communities and center our entire Christian experience on the worship service, we keep all of our light hidden inside, under a bushel.  But when we go out and preach the good news by serving the poor and oppressed, we take our light with us, and that then that light can illuminate stained glass windows the world over.

Now, I’m not going to consider myself so bold and proud to tell you that I know what the will of God and God’s desires are.  But if I were, I would tell you that weekly worship is not for the benefit God, but rather for us.  It gives you and I, the members of the congregation an opportunity to come together in fellowship.  The prayers we recite and the hymns we sing together are not for God’s benefit, but to feel united as a community.  The feast we are about to partake of offers us a link to the past and a way to receive the grace of God freely given to us.  The grace that pushes us to go out and minister to the world.  Just like the huddle in football, weekly worship allows us to come together, unite as the body of Christ that we represent, and take a brief break before we go back out into the world we are called to serve.

Because, again, I’m not going to stand here and say that I know everything about the will of God or God’s nature.  But if I were to be so bold, I would say that God cares less about whether we use an organ or a praise band and more about the cries of justice coming from the oppressed.

I would say that God cares less about what prayers we say and when we say them and more about the words we use against our brothers and sisters.

I would say that God cares less about the way we decorate and treat our house of worship and more about the way we treat the Creation given to us by God.

I would say that God cares less about whether we address God as him, her, Jehovah, Adonai, or whatever name we can come up with and more about the way God’s name is used to spread hate and injustice.

Because here’s the thing, our worship to God is not supposed to be confined to one hour every week.  Jesus did not say that  he would be with them whenever a group of people only gather in a Church.  Jesus did not say that he would be them when a group of people gather for only a few hours on a Sunday.  Jesus said that he would be be wherever a group of people are gathered in his name.  Jesus didn’t command us to stay in our houses of worship and only minister to those who agree with us or make it into our sanctuaries.  Jesus said to go out and make disciples of all nations.  Our ministry to the outside world is in and of itself an act of worship.  When we gather together to do service and seek justice, we are, by our actions, worshipping God.

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Friday, March 29, 2013

Lent 44

My God, why have you forsaken me?

I'm thirsty.

It is finished.

Father, into your hands, I commend my spirit!

Today, I saw God on a cross.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Lent 43

Cool water

Offered so all can live

Something we all can give

Gives peace to those in strife

Sharing the word of life

Today I saw God in water

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Lent 42

Almost there

Today I saw God in fellowship and laughter.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Lent 41

Today and tomorrow, the SCOTUS is hearing arguments regarding California's Proposition 8 and the Defense of Marriage Act. It has the potential to be a landmark year for Marriage Equality...

...of course it could also turn out to be the Dred Scott for marriage equality

But I'm hopeful. All day on Facebook I have seen nothing but Red (red being the color that the marriage equality camp has decided to use to spread their message...I wonder who gets to come up with that). Peers of mine are going down to the Supreme Court to protest Prop 8 and DOMA. I don't want to say anything that might jinx it, but I think things may be looking up.

Today, I see God in hope

Monday, March 25, 2013

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Lent 39

Anniversaries really bring out memories. A married couple on their anniversary remember the day they committed to spend the rest of their lives together. On a child's birthday, a parent will remember the joy they experienced on the day they brought life into this world. On the anniversary of a loved one's death, feelings of loneliness creep their ways in.

Today is an anniversary in my life story. For one year now, I've been suffering from a personal ordeal. One year ago today, I was a mess, a total wreck. I felt as if I would never heal.

And yet here I am. Granted, I still have some way to go in the journey, but I have come a long way. I guess that's a God sighting in itself.

But that's not what I'm going to blog about today. Like I said, anniversaries bring back memories, and I was really worried for today.

But today is Palm Sunday. For those not involved in a church, Palm Sunday is kind of a big deal. It's right up there on the list of best church services in the liturgical year.

Of course, that means that there are a lot of details that go into a service. Today alone, I had three different services, I had to direct a children's choir (which is akin to herding cats), sing a solo, and direct the campus ministry choir (and half of them missed the memo that they were coming an hour early).

I say all this, not because I'm worn out, but because everything provided a much needed distraction for today. I hardly thought about my problem at all today, and for that I'm extraordinarily thankful.

Today, I saw God in distractions.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Lent 38

Got to love the sabbath day.

Today I had some friends over, and when we got home my roommate was in our room skipping with two friends of ours who are studying abroad this semester. So we all crammed around the computer to hang out with them, even though they were an entire ocean away. Today I saw God in real-life relationship building through technology.

Friday, March 22, 2013

Lent 37

So I'm the tenor soloist for the church across the street and they're singing a really bombastic piece on Sunday morning for Palm Sunday. However, they're choir has gotten a little thin so the director said that the church would be willing to pay anyone who came to help sing. I asked some singer friends of mine and for the most part they all said yes. The choir is going to be stronger 8 people, and I'm really excited to hear what it will sound like. Today I saw God in singers eager to serve and a church that never ceases to support American University students.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Lent 35

I'm going to be up all night tonight.  I have an abstract/annotated bibliography due for History of Music 1 tomorrow at 11:45am and I'm just getting started (luckily I have a preliminary bibliography to springboard off of).

That's not my God sighting though.

In case you hadn't noticed, we're getting really close to Easter.  Holy Week starts on Sunday.  For those who have no idea what working in a church setting is like, Holy Week is sort of what hell week is for theater people.  Over the course of Palm Sunday to Easter, I have eleven church services to work at/attend (three on Palm Sunday, two on Maundy Thursday, one on Good Friday, one Midnight Vigil, and four on Easter Sunday).

I'm going to need another spring break.

And yet, our UMSA is really on top of its game.  We had one of the most productive meetings in recent memory tonight.  Everything is planned.  Hymns are chosen.  Musicians have been secured.  Potluck assignments have been made (at least for the staples).  Holy Week may be long this year, but at least we're prepared for it.

Today, I saw God in UMSA leaders who know how to get shit done.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Lent 34

Yesterday was a very blah day. I don't quite know why, maybe it just being the first day back from break. But today was bette. Again, I can't quite explain why, but it was. Today I saw God in getting back into a routine

Monday, March 18, 2013

Lent 33

Keeping it more brief than usual today.  Today I saw God in an extra shift at Kay in which I got to hang out with cool people

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Lent 32

We had an Irish dancer today in service. It was a real treat, and it brought a lot of joy to the rest if the congregation. Today, I saw God in a lovely dancer. Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Lent 31

I grew up in a big church, in terms of both congregational membership and physical size.  My home church, which has the most members in the entire conference, is a large gothic-style building.  The long aisle that cuts through the middle of the sanctuary is flanked on either side with large stone pillars and grandeur stained glass windows.  At the front of the sanctuary is an altar with a huge gold cross on it, and above that is an ornately decorated stained glass rose window.  On the temple/tabernacle spectrum, my home church falls on the extreme temple side.

I mention all of this because the church that I work at here in DC (not my campus ministry) is basically the same.  It's a large building which contains a large congregation (meaning: wealthy congregation).  

My balcony has a lovely view of the church I work at, and I can see it perfectly fine from the safety of my bed when my blinds are open.

However, my roommate doesn't like to sleep with the blinds open, so we don't.  But since he was home for spring break, I got to sleep with the blinds open, and the last thing I saw before I fell asleep each night was the steeple of the church I work at brightly illuminated by lights.  And I don't know, but that served as a warm sense of comfort, probably partly due to the awesome members that church has.  So today, I saw God before I fell asleep (at 3 in the morning, so it counts for today) in the lovely view of a church.

Friday, March 15, 2013

Lent 30

This spring break I've learned (or maybe reaffirmed) a couple things:

Rest is good
When the kitchen is clean, cooking is good
Staying on campus when everyone else either went home or on vacation can be very lonely

However, today one of my roommates came back from his home, and there was much rejoicing throughout the land!  Solitude can really be relaxing, but after a certain point, one can get a little stir crazy.  So when Zach got back, it was a taste of what it would be like to have everyone else back.  I cannot wait for Sunday services and fellowship (I'm bringing brownies!) when I will get to catch up with my friends and hear all about their breaks and what they did.

Today, I saw God in reunion.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Lent 29

Spring break really is a wonderful thing.  I've done absolutely nothing all week except rest.  I feel rested and rejuvenated and I'm ready to tackle the rest of the semester.  Today I saw God in Sabbath rest.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Lent 28

I really love cooking. If I wasn't a music major, I'd be in culinary school. Unfortunately, due to the constraints of being a full-time student working four jobs working with a kitchen that is frequently a sty, I don't typically get to cook very often. But today I got to cook a pan-seared ribeye steak and I've started work on a pan pizza made from scratch which I will finish tomorrow. Today I saw God in culinary adventures.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Lent 27

Today I had lunch and saw a movie with a really good friend. We got to catch up with what's going on in each other's lives over the best burgers you can find in the District. That was my God sighting for the day.